Mean What You Say

I've found that people can say I hate you and not mean it. They might say I am gonna kill them and not mean it. Why say it if you don't mean it? It hurts people. Later on it might even hurt you. You are not of this world and you are better then what the world puts you as. You can only do your best. Try to do as good as someone else isn't going to make you them, it only makes you like them. If it is too hard keep trying. Don't get big headed because you can do something someone else can't do. They do what they can and so do you.

My Friend

I have a friend who used to cut herself. She never told me about it tell about half a year ago and she started when she was 11 she is now 16.
I have another friend who sometimes still thinks about killing herself.
My friend who has stopped told me a few days ago she only did it because pain felt good.
Her pain hurt me more then it hurt her.
All I wanted was for her to stop. I imagined living life without her. I imagined what things could and would never happen because she wouldn't be there.
She finely told me about it. She stills sometimes thinks about it.
It is hard to get over. I am not speaking from experience I am speaking from the point of view of a friend.
It really hurts others more then you know. I knew that she was sad, I knew that she was depressed, I knew I had to do something.
She is pressing on everyday still fighting that little speck of cutting still in her mind.
My other friend I never knew about her cutting until she called me one night and told me to just talk to her.
She was crying on the other end and I later found out that she had been holding a knife to her throat while I talked. I could say nothing but, I love you.
People learned from their mistakes but, some still try.
Random people some how get my number and I get texted at the randomness times of night getting asked why they shouldn't kill themselves. Because I love them.
Depression is real.
The fact that you choose to accept it or pass it by is a choice.
My choice is to love those who need loved. Not in a worldly way. But in a God way.

press on

Everyday is a struggle, but keep your head held high and press on.

Beautiful

Even though they call you fat, even though they my call you ugly. You are not. You are beautiful inside and out. Believe and things will happen.